I want you both and that’s impossible.
No, just kidding. I want the one I’ve fallen so helplessly in love with over the past year. The one I have what seems like a life time of memeories with. The one who’s made me who I am today. I want him now, everyday and forever. I’ve never stopped wanting him any less than the day I realized I love him. But he breaks my heart. He always messes up and I never love him any less. We can’t resist each other.
But I also want the other one. The one that’s there for me when the heartbreaker lets me down. The one that’s been there for years as a best friend and treated me like a princess. The only one that was there when I wanted to die. However I want him in a different way. It’s a different kind of love. I just can’t hurt him. I don’t want to but I always do. He’s so good for me but my heart’s addicted to heartbreaker.
I can’t have both. I know who I want, but I also want the other one around. But with both around I’m sure my heart is fucked up enough to do that whole “loving two people” bullshit and that leads to hurting more people. That’s more complicating than this already is.